“Times of transition are strenuous, but I love them. They are an opportunity to purge, rethink priorities, and be intentional about new habits. We can make our new normal any way we want.” –Kristin Armstrong
“You will never do anything in this world without courage. It is the greatest quality of the mind next to honor.” –Aristotle
“If you want to reach out for something new, you must first let go of what’s in your hand.” –Sonia Choquette
I’m in a period of transition. Last month my husband and I made the last payment to our credit card debt, I’m turning 62 this year and the publication date for my first novel is fast approaching. My life is changing in a big way, which I love. Yet, it’s strange to have this new life stretching out in front of me. I don’t know what to expect and that’s at once liberating and daunting. How do I allow new things to come into my life without assuming that my future will be very much like my past?
Part of what prompted this post is the fact that I picked up A Course In Miracles again and was reminded that the past isn’t real. What happened to me in the past is gone and will never occur again. Yet, sometimes I allow it to continue to affect me in a big way. There have been times when I’ve assumed that life will continue on much as it has gone before. A Course in Miracles points out that our minds are powerful creators, and sometimes we recreate what has happened in the past over and over again. But it needn’t be that way. It’s kind of paradoxical that we can learn from what happened to us in the past, but our present and subsequent future is a blank. We can create it any way we want. It’s all in the way we “think” about what is to come.
In the past, when I was on the threshold of a new life, I wanted a new fresh start, but leaving old attitudes and expectations behind was really difficult. First of all I had a hard time imagining how I would feel living my new life. Second, My little ego thought it knew what was best for me and so tried to be the guide. Third, I didn’t trust that I could really let go and let God fashion a new life for me. I was afraid. This time I want things to be different.
As we grow we are taught by our parents and society that we can be anything we want to be if we’re lucky, or that we’re worthless if we’re not. Many of the things we’ve learned hold us back. They clog up our mind and we keep repeating patterns from our past that don’t serve us. We don’t love ourselves enough to allow in all the great things that the Divine wants to give us. Our ego defeats us. This has been my lifelong struggle between being of service to fulfill my purpose, and to be hampered by wanting to be in control of my own life. Maybe you too have experienced this struggle. Over the years as I’ve studied, prayed and worked at letting go of my past, I’ve made some progress in understanding my place in the world.
What I’ve learned is that we are connected to each other and the Source of All that is. We’re all part of something bigger than ourselves, something bigger than we can imagine. Our ego doesn’t see this connection and wants to be in control of directing our choices so we can end up with all the toys. That gets us into trouble.
When we let go of trying to control every little thing that happens to us, and allow our Source to be in charge, there is a joyful bond to our purpose. We know we’re in partnership with our Source when fear leaves us and we feel the ecstasy that comes from co-creating with Her.
Letting go of the past, releasing the old beliefs that no longer serve us and realizing that our ego does not have our best interests at heart is a deeply personal, internal journey. It’s something that we chip away at a little at a time. I believe it takes courage to grow. However, I’m happy to say that for me, it has been worth it. I’m committed to letting the past go and becoming a partner with the Divine so I can fulfill my place in whatever the bigger plan for our world might be.
Lucinda Sage-Midgorden © 2015
6 thoughts on “Leaving the Past in the Past”
Sometimes it is hard to let go. And I believe there are some things we should never let go of – they have helped to shape and create us, our beliefs, our dreams. Even the bad things.
I no longer let (especially the negative) things control me, but they surely are there.
BTW – cannot send emails for some reason. Hopefully when I return on Friday!
Emilie, Thanks for your reply. Weird about the email thing. It will be good to have you back. I hope your trip is fantastic.
Oh how timely this topic is as I have been letting go of that which does not serve me. Thank you for the reminder that I am in PARTNERSHIP with Spirit-a good thing to remember. I love the phrase, “my place in the world”-helps put my life in perspective.
Rita, Thanks for your response. I’m always humbled when what I write helps someone.
I’m with you, Lucinda. The constant letting go, finding the courage to keep slugging it out with an ever eager ego, stepping away from a linear focus and into the arms of the Source without Source…It is a lifelong journey of becoming. Your words show great courage, perseverance and a love of truth. I always take something away from your posts.
Dorothy, Thanks for your kind comments. There are times when I wish I could just put the cruise control on and live an uncomplicated life, but that’s just not possible. I guess I’d get bored if my life was like that anyway. It’s tackling challenges that makes life worthwhile.