“That might sound boring, but I think the boring stuff is the stuff I remember the most.” ~ The character Russell from the movie Up.
“I love deadlines. I love the whooshing noise they make as they go by.” ~ Douglas Adams, The Salmon of Doubt
Some projects defy good intentions, or deadlines I set for myself. That’s been happening with my second attempt to record my audiobook. This time I was determined to finish recording and editing before the end of the year. But I started having trouble with GarageBand on the first chapter. I would get into the editing mode, and boom, the sound would go out, for no reason. I’d be playing the selection, but all of sudden I couldn’t hear a thing. Barry is going to help me figure out what’s going on, but even that is not moving forward as fast as I wish it would.
For a day or two I was in the dumps about being at a stand still on this project. I whined about that in my journal. I whine a lot in my journal. I have to get out all my bad feelings and then I can hear the answer Spirit wants to give me to solve my problems. So, of course, I got the message after clearing out the negative emotions. Chill out! Take a break. It’s all going to work out. Whew. I really do need a break I’ve been very tired lately.
But taking a break is hard for me. Every morning I have an agenda for the day in my head. If I don’t accomplish all those tasks, I feel uneasy as if my worth is tied up with all the things I’ve done or not done that day. I guess I need to pay attention to what Neale Donald Walsch said to me 30 or so years ago. “You’re a human being, not a human doing.” Hmm. I haven’t let myself just be for quite some time.
A week or so ago, my husband and I watched the movie, Up on Disney +. I’d forgotten so much of the movie. But one thing stuck out for me. The child character of Russell, who has attached himself to Mr. Fredrickson, tells him about the things he remembers about spending time with his dad. And he says that it’s the boring stuff he remembers the most. And it occurred to me that I don’t allow enough boring stuff into my life. I fill my life with so much work and attempts to be a success that I miss some really important moments. That is sad.
So, life is now presenting me with a chance to slow down. Many spiritual teachers say that everything happens at the proper time. It must not be time to do my audiobook. Okay, that’s fine. I’ll take a break from that and allow myself to recharge instead of pushing myself through as I usually do. Though I know it’s not good to run on empty, I’ve done it most of my life. It’s time to take care of me for a change.
This morning I was thinking about a time shortly after I began teaching public high school. I came back after Christmas break I think it was, and one of my fellow teachers asked me how I was doing. I said, “I feel rested,” which surprised me, because I did. And I can’t really think of many times in my life when I could say, “I feel rested.”
So my goal for the remainder of this year is to learn to rest when I need it. After all, creativity and contributions to the greater good is nearly impossible when our internal batteries are not charged.
I want to acknowledge a great loss of many of us in the U.S. Supreme Court Justice Ruth Bader Ginsburg has died. Many of us are heart broken, but I say, rest in peace. You deserve it. Thanks for all you did for us.
Thanks for reading, liking, and commenting. Take some time to just “be” this weekend.
Lucinda Sage-Midgorden © 2020
Lucinda is the author of The Space Between Time, an award finalist in the “Fiction: Fantasy” category of the 2017 Best Book Awards.
Have you ever experienced life shattering events? Yeah, most of us have. In The Space Between Time, Jenna Holden gets slammed by her fiancé walking out, her mother’s untimely death, and losing her job all in one week. But she receives unexpected help when she finds her three-times great-grandmother’s journals and begins the adventure of a lifetime.
The Space Between Time is available in all ebook formats at Smashwords and for Kindle at Amazon, or you can find the ebook at iBooks or Barnes and Noble. If you prefer a physical copy, you can find a print-on-demand version at Amazon. Stay tuned for news when the audiobook version is published.
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